Could a fit girl fall for a fat guy?

Hey people, I need more feedback so here is my question again .

I love this special girl, and I have all the reasons in the world to love her. I mean, since I know her, I fell for herself and when I look at her, even if we’ve known each other for a while ( 1year and half ) I was and I’m still wowed by her beautiful eyes and… she’s just a natural beauty! I’m starting to think… why do you aim so high… out of your league… but what can I do, I fell for her.

I wanted to tell her that I had feelings for her today because we were in the “love subject” but then, she said she would like her future boyfriend to be fit and train for himself without being a meat head. ( She trains too, but for herself, not for others… it’s like a passion to her )

So yeah… I just talked normally not talking about my feelings because it scared me… I’m fat, but it’s not because I’m a lazy couch potato that eats too much. I have a neurological condition that makes my muscles weak and… even leaves me in a wheelchair ( electric when I go out because manual… would not do it for me. ) I still exercise to keep the weight off… but it’s hard! Anyways, that made be off my game . I know she’s not shallow, but being human and training her self… you know…

Anyways, for you guys to judge better I will talk about our relation. We are good friends, and specially for about 4 months. She even told me that she was happy to have me as a friend because she knew I will not judge her, that I was sweet and because she can trust me like no one else ( oh the pressure!!!!). Anyhow, I’m what you can call a nice guy, but not the social tofu version, it’s natural to me and I assure you that I can be interesting and funny even if I sound serious.

So do you think she could still love me if I’m fat?

Since I’m probably in the friend zone, is there a way to bypass it and… maybe give a relationship a try?
Ps I’m 18!

How long do you think it will take for my alcoholism to kill me? What can I do? Am I an extreme alcoholic?

please give me an honest opinion.

I’m 24 years old, and I’ve been drinking for 6 years. But at first since I was under 21 and I just asked my parents/sister for some beer every now and then it wasn’t so bad, but when I was 19, my grandfather paid for a trip to Cancun that I took with my friends and my girlfriend from back then, I spent all summer in Cancun where the drinking age was 18, well for 2 months, it wasn’t just a 6 pack here and there, it was constant drinking, and ALOT of liquor and beer with some wine thrown in here and there, and well I enjoyed it, so I came back an alcoholic, and from there on I started drinking about 12 beers a day at first, then about 18, I also drank liquor here and there and my family and friends were very upset, but I’m a master manipulator lol some have called me a sociopath, so I manipulated them into buying them for me, it caused me some legal problems too and at first I just had to pay fines (well my parents/grandfather) and then they gave me a suspended sentence and probation, well I somehow managed to convince my probation officer to not alcohol test me and I didn’t stop drinking. I didn’t go to college and I’d just sit at home all day drinking and playing video games, smoking cigarettes and writing, and at night I’d just go to strip clubs and sneak in liquor on a flask.

Well after I turned 21, it got worse, I started drinking a lot of liquor and more beer, for 3 years now I drink about 24 beers a day (coors light or corona), and about 3-7 mini bottles of vodka (50ml), and every now and then some wine. I also binge drink a lot to get drunk faster.

Well up until recently I’d pretty much lost a lot of my friends and my parents had just given up on me, they still gave me money to buy alcohol but I could tell my father hated me.

Well now through some luck (well not really luck), I inherited money and a house from my grandpa, so now I have no reason to stop drinking. Sometimes I honestly don’t care and I’m really happy, but sometimes I get depressed and feel alone (my girlfriend broke up with me because I cheated on her) and I realize that me drinking has really ruined me.

But now I’m not ruined, well not really ruined I have money now and I’ve been spending it on more drinking, more sex, and more hedonistic lazy pastimes. But I see other people my age and they’re in serious relationships and even thinking about marriage, while every Friday night I’m passed out at a random girl’s house after having a one night stand or worse yet passed out by myself after watching online porn. I also just hire escorts and go to strip clubs and parties, and while I do have fun, sometimes I feel like it’s all meaningless and in the eyes of the world Im a loser.

My mind also changes a lot, sometimes I feel happy sometimes depressed and since I inherited the money I got excited that I might never have to work again but at the same time it’s made me feel worthless. I’ve also gained weight which I don’t like.

So based on the above how long do you think I have? I drink about 24 beers a day + 7 shots of liquor, smoke 2 packs of cigarettes a day, don’t exercise much, don’t eat healthy. and I’m 24 years old about to turn 25 and been drinking for 6 and a half years, I’m 6-1, weigh 215 pounds.

Everytime I think about stopping my drinking I get anxiety and my whole world revolves around drinking.

I have a problem. I’ve had this problem all my life.?

I’ve never been able to keep the pace with others, physically. Since kindergarten, probably before then, I used tricks to make it look like I went on the entire hike, along with the others. That’s one example. I’ve NEVER run half a mile. Jogging lazily for 2 minutes almost definitely kills me, though I’ve jogged a bit longer, maybe even 3 minutes. I can feel it in my bones, in the marrow, like my limbs fall asleep and also they shake. My voice gets raspy, my teeth feel dizzy, the clouds itch my eyes, and most of all, I can’t continue.

I have a very attractive body, and have even sold it many times. I work out a couple hours every day, anaerobically, and have done so since I was 9 years old.

I now ask you to define my problem, because I’ve been to 4 doctors, which have caused me to hate doctors. The first two said it’s exercised induced asthma (w/out doing any formal tests, just asking me questions about my history). The 2nd two said it is clearly NOT asthma. They did tests. My lungs are in excellent condition. My lung capacity is excellent. My blood pressure is usually on the low side, but not unhealthily low.

Ironically, I can beat most people swimming laps UNDERWATER, but not in the usual way. I can’t swim well, or play ANY sport to my potential, because of this problem. But I can hold my breath a long time, for what it’s worth.

I’m not going to go into my diet, which is highly unusual, because it’s irrelevant…it has significantly changed over the course of this affliction.

I have tried to overcome this a number of times, by running, jumping rope, just by will power. I have used will power to great advantage in other areas. I am not just lazy. This seems to be a physical limitation. It also affects my sex life, of course. Right now, I’m merely memorable as the best they’ve ever had,..whereas if this were not weighing me down, I could be the best they could even imagine.

Here’s a link to some pics of me, so you can see I’m not a tub-o-lard.

Some overweight ppl have said I look like a runner. One of the pictures was taken after I had not eaten for 17 days. I normally don’t look so thin.

My latest doctor, who made me wait 2 and a half hours even though he knew I had an appt at noon, tersely told me to see a pulmonologist or a shrink. I seriously doubt a shrink is going to find out why I can’t run for shit. That might make sense if I USED TO BE ABLE to run, then suddenly, for no apparent reason, I’m limited. But in this case, there’s been this thorn in my foot all my life. I WANT IT OUT!!!

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